Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Please help - I'm really upset?

It's just dawned on me that I'm in a really bad situation. I've been in a relationship for the past 6 months. Before then I was completely infatuated with the guy I finally succeeded in getting. In previous relationship, I've never felt completely comfortable, or I've sort of lost interest really quickly. But now, I am completely in love with my boyfriend. I've never felt this way before in my life. I put him on the biggest pedestal you could possibly imagine. But now I've realised that I'm not getting anything back. I love him so much, but it's like the only time he ever shows anything back is during ual . Other than that he just treats me like any other of his mates. Even below that. It occurred to me tonight that he prefers having a conversation with his friends than with me. We have this mutual friend who was at dinner with us tonight. When she left he gave her this great big hug. When he and I went back to our separate rooms tonight he just went without even hugging me. It's just like, he has no idea how much I think of him and then to him, he must never think of me when I'm not there with him. I always come second best to everyone else, whereas with me, no one could ever live up to him. Now I feel like an idiot because I've finally realised this and I find it very upsetting because no matter how much I love him, he'll never feel the same back. Does this mean that I have to grapple with all the love I feel towards him and end this relationship for purely selfish reasons?

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